Tolong lerr jgn nyusahkan idup aku

Aku x tau la kau ni..mmg pesen kau eaa nk nyusahkn org je.problem kau,kau mls nk settlekan.bnde kecik je pun.bila tnye knp  tak settle mulalah beribu ribu alasan kau tu.lps tu ngendeng kt org lain.wei umur kau tu dh meningkat.sampai bila nk hrpkn org??pakai la otak kau tu sikit.kalau kau gunakan otak kiri ngan kanan kau tu di tempat yg betul,confirm settle.tpi kau letak otak kau kt mne??kt bnde bnde tak guna,bnde yg takde faedah langsung.aku tak fhm la kau ni.kadang aku fikir gak,kwn baik kau yg belambak tu xnak pula kau susahkan,org yg mcm aku ni juga kau nak susahkan ye.knape ae??nmpk aku ni senang ke nk dipergunekn??aku pn ada priority aku ok.aku hidup ni bkn semate mate  nk layan engkau mcm tuan aku.please la grow up.matang sikit.kalau bnyk lgi bagus.tpi entahlaa.aku pn tak fhm ngan otak udang kau ni.

Thank you

Remember about the crush post.well i kinda ended up dating him..and also we kinda ended up in our separate ways.haha.for almost 3 months i am very thankful for the good memories that we had.and i am very thankful that we never had fights like other couples.maybe this relationship was just made out of loneliness and symphaty i guess.im not saying that im not sad at all,that will be bullshit.im sad,i cried when u say u cant love me,when u want to be friends like we used to be.it hurts.but what can i do.i gotta be strong.my life is not only revolves about u.i have my family.my parents that wants to see me suceed.i gotta move on.i need to move on.i thank you again.

Am i having a crush on him??

I dont know if im really "crush"ing on him but still the feeling is totally way out of the friendzone.i mean we always chat in the middle of midnight for hours.at first i thought it was just a short chat cuz he's asking about my friend who his friend is crushing on so i expect that it would end at that time.but unexpectedly he continued chatting with me.telling stories about him and asking stories about me.im not really talkative and open towards guys except for those whom i really close with.so yeah,we chat for a few weeks and suddenly he turns to a rockstone.i got no chats from him.its not that hard to meet him cuz he's my classmate but like i said,im uncomfortable with guys.even when we used to chat,i dont talk to him in or out of the class.when he stopped contacting me,i felt lonely.maybe because he's busy as  we're struggling with finals but....i just felt like im ignored.our dorms are very close and some time we bumped into each other.we both gave an awkward smile.i.miss him and im not sure why.i tried to chat him first because usually he's the one who always initiated the chat but there are no reply.im really confuse.do i like him??am i crushing or the worst in love with him??

My fault

Now that uve used all the benefits from me,u just walk away.knowing that now ur more better than me.i know its my fault to assume that you are my friend.but know this my friend,what goes around comes around.i wll take note on that too..

The true you

Spending a period of time with u makes me understand what ure true nature is.ure not the person worth to be called a FRIEND.u take on ur priority first than the others who in need of ur help.u left them hanging.ure such an asshole.i know u need to take care of ur priority but to leave ur friend just like that??that's not a wise move my dear so called 'friend'.i really want to talk more about ur attitude but then i think its not even worth to be mentioned cuz even if i talk about it,u wouldnt even take a slight care about it.like i said ure an asshole.im really amazed about how u can talk bad about people when u cant even see and reflect on urself.i wonder if ur so called bestfriends are really ur bestfriends.the way i see it,theyre just sticking onto you like paracytes.just like what u do to me.i know ure benefitting me but im not the one who u can easily step on my head just because i dont say anything about it.its just the matter of time before i explode.

Give me a break will you

I dont know how to start.im just freaking pissed off these days.u shiit spoiled brats stop clinging to me! im better off alone rather than having parasites like u in my life!!a sociopath,a bird brain  and an airhead is what i can describe about you.seriously i know ure talkin behind my back and i just let it slide.but enough is enough.ure stayin by my side,callin me friend because im a benefit to u.im not stupid like u.i know everything that revolves around me.fuck off and stay outta my life.

New semester , new dorm , new conflicts

New semester right...??so let's see.well i got into a new semester.many things change.i transferred into a new dorm with new housemates and roommates.I knew some of yhem because they were my classmates in the last semester and also one of my roommate in the last semester got into the same dorm as me..wohoo! so i settled my things in my new room,picked my new bed,having an icebreaking session with my new roommates and housemates and the next week,tadaaa!!class starts.with a new class in a new semester obviously new classmates is not an unusual thing.there are many unfamiliar faces.the only familiar faces are some of my old classmates.not many of my classmates made into my present class.

so what's the conflict??

well...........

my roommate..the one that i've known since the last semester,she's the conflict.well i've been living with her for about 7 months now.she changed a lot since the new semester starts.lets just call her as A.A has been really annoying these days.back in the days she use to be a lil pain in the ass but not as much that i can hate her.now, i think i'm starting to hate her lil by lil.it started when she knew my new housemates B and C who were my classmates in my first semester.A,B,C and me are in the same class, so we always go class together and sit together in the same row..but i'm not really a person that likes to make new "BFF ".especially if i have dislikes in their particular attitudes.just sufficient being an ordinary friend is sufficient for me.but not all people are the same right.so eventually A became very close to them.she started to go hangout in B and C's room,sharing byfriend talks,even studying together and left me out.what a friend!!this is why i dont like having new friends.they're new to you,so u actually dont know about them very well,about their personality,their attitude,stuff like that.eventually u're the one who  get stabbed in the back.but the most thing that i'm dissapointed about A is that she practically throw me out and  act like as if i'm invisible.she used to talk to me all the time that one point i have to plugged in my earphone.now??when my other housemates went to the town,she asked them to buy food for her.but the worst part,she didnt even ask me if i want to order the food and instead she went to the back and ask B and C if they want to order or not.the fuck!!?? i was sitting in front of her!my birthday was on early of this month and my 2 of old housemates birthday were close with my birthday.2 of my housemates birthday wereon the 4th and 6th.i'm on the 8th.we have a group massenger app specially for the old housemates members.including A.so when we wishes the 2 hsemates,they replied with thanks and mentioned that the next upcoming person wolud be me.A saw the chat history and guess what??on my birthday she didnt even wish me.she's one hell of a friend!!one mf my roommate knew my birthday and wishes me in front of A.she told A that, that day was my birthday and she replied "i know..".what the?!!! 

oh yes, C's birthday is in a few days.how do i know?? A came to me and told me so...she wanted to celebrate her birthday! A even buys chocolate for C.i dont know how stupid of her to tell me about celebrating C's birthday when she didnt even wish me a happy birthday.that is why i'm starting to walk on my own way now.i study alone and always watching drama on my laptop while plugging my earphone in full volume so that i cant hear anything as if i'm in my own world.